The Rabbit Hole

in the midst

2005-10-12T02:24:16Z

the stars once shared no longer hold there position
the sky equaly stared has not the same meaning
the lies continue to ruin
and not prepared for the rejected filth
and suffocation of the land masses
and the distance that was placed for reasons
not of ones self
but of those that rip the scabs
and tear the stitches
with repetitions
not much unlike
the ferris wheel

and it comes to that point again

2005-10-05T06:48:34Z

and that rain comes tumbling down
as the realizations
still stands
that stories still exist
and the life still continues
into the next level
the next story
to consist of the past
as they say
or will be the works
that is in mind what should be
and if it is really
the lust that interferes with the lust

and missing the point of it

2005-09-20T06:31:45Z

and i wander the empty room looking for my mind
dance the halls in sorrow filled cries
swim through it all from wall to wall
holding on to the lamp shades for support
and still being pulled away
swept further away
from the tasks at hand

it happens to the best of us

2005-09-09T03:47:48Z

murmurs and flashes of destructions surges through my brain and heart as i try to grasp the continuence of my love to that perfect generation of life. to hang on to those tear filled eyes over and over and over again. and suffocate the demons that arise into the eyes of mine when it's there but wont see. scratching and gasping for breath, i just cant. though dont really want to. just wanting that one release that causes the means. but my deception only works on myself and will continue in spite of the fire and quakes that tear it all down. maybe someday it wont be this way. when the shakes stop. and the bad dreams

madhare713 @ 2005-09-02T21:32:00

2005-09-03T04:33:36Z

and the children run to go play
as i sit here alive and naked
just wanting that wet dream
of the one that i love
and the one that i need
and as i watch them
over the jungle gym
fighting for the red ball
and have so much happiness
i realize what it means to be in love
and hate it

thar she be

2005-09-02T02:24:13Z

and the search for sunken treasures
is nothing more then a bust
and the pictures in front of the eye
are amusing and comical
so we see what was the past
and put our broken bodies
to the task of the future
with the excuse of the poison
to reveal the truth
all the while
we kid the children
with hurtful words
of passion to the true ones
but the box that holds
cant be broken from
with the chains that bind
the mind
and nails the heart
to the floor

madhare713 @ 2005-08-31T00:27:00

2005-08-31T07:32:04Z

and the heartless have taken a hold of me
either that or mine has betrayed me
and sunken lower then has been
though i try to shake the tar from my shoulders
it poors harder
and deeper i am burried
till there is nothing in sight
but the hell that i have created

madhare713 @ 2005-08-29T23:27:00

2005-08-30T06:33:08Z

and the strings rooting from the top of her head compell me to call out in agony. agony that i have held so close inside where no one can touch and no one can break. the one thing that still holds strong and warm to the touch in the middle of the desolate waste. burning bright and burning ever with radiant light. and i keep it to myself for the thoughts of memories merly revisited then a cure from this illness and horrid behavior. so pass the leathal injection so that the feeling may just be with me and no more fouls will be conjured.

yet stil

2005-08-21T06:22:07Z

yet still everything is told not
they say they are there but not
i think
of all i have tried to help out
motices or not
and i want a voice
or a arm
something to lean
to talk
to listen
and yet still
all of you
who say you will be there
really arent
so then why should i help anyone
anymore
curious am i
to why i try

drown yourself in alchohol

2005-08-15T02:39:07Z

and the sins of pasts, present, and future
leads you to the watering trauph
to gorge and drown yourself
in a vat of alchohol
that carries the stings and woes
to a new level
that ripens the wounds
and peels the scabs
and increases the rivers flow
creating the pools that we swim in
infested with aids and blood
and all the love of yesterday
from the demons past
are ready to take you back now
so lets just give them a high five
and say it's about bloody time

madhare713 @ 2005-08-13T00:02:00

2005-08-13T07:06:17Z

and the love
runs so thick
that there isnt even
three feet in front
to see
and the love is so immmense
that i cant stand it
it's here
and it always has been
but instead
it is replaced
with thoughts of
corpes and desease

madhare713 @ 2005-08-11T07:22:00

2005-08-11T14:27:20Z

sleeping with the lights on
and dreaming of the curves in the air
missing so dearly half of me
that i must regain though wont
wishing to grasp the emotion
that has consumed me
and left me with these chains
and left me with this path
of destruction left behind
and of suicide attempts gone bad
and living gone worse

madhare713 @ 2005-08-08T23:01:00

2005-08-09T06:05:14Z

and i care
as well as trust
and i lust
and for all hell i love
and i can think of nothing wrong
that has been done
and only wish, for what should be
what was meant to be
and i am stil here
in the dust
with nothing more
then memories

madhare713 @ 2005-08-04T21:28:00

2005-08-05T04:37:36Z

i rip through the hallways
making my way to the stale smell of the sheets
to where the stain still lies
from the thirty second whore
and her distilled beef jerky
that rose from her twat
or i mean to say cunt
or i mean to say box
and that junk smelled fowl
with the bitter after taste of it
into which i died once again
crawling into those fishy lips
and swimming into contaminated sea's
of polluted discharges
and infected waters
to where i died once again
and still shake
to these bones
through to the organs
the ones that are constantly wrong

madhare713 @ 2005-07-28T20:50:00

2005-07-29T03:53:27Z

ripping at the holes in the walls and watching them bleed white walsh.

once upon a time

2005-07-22T06:09:27Z

once upon a time
i was asked to quit
quit drinking, and everything else
i can remember actually quiting
basically anyways
and i remember it being ok with me
i remember saying alright
here you go
to give this to a person
for me to be giving this to a person
and i did it
i didnt stray
i didnt change
it was good
and since then
others have tried
but it will always be
the same story for the rest
sucks for you
as well as me
but for that one person
or that one time
it was nice
well, more then nice

madhare713 @ 2005-07-16T10:45:00

2005-07-16T17:48:12Z

i am having this problem
maybe not so much of a problem
but an inconvenience to my head
where everywhere i look i see you
and everything around me
reminds me so much of you

madhare713 @ 2005-07-13T23:28:00

2005-07-14T06:29:17Z

and the destruction has become more then ever
and the only thin that comes of it
a scratch
what is the point
in thinking of the one that might have been there
the one that was there
it's all pretty pointless
here and gone

cows on the moon

2005-07-14T00:02:57Z

i am forcing myself
to give into the insanity
and to do the unthinkable
to make myself do the unconcievable
all i can say for this
is i hope that
they have good drugs for me
upon my arrival

hello there

2005-07-13T06:34:26Z

and the winter
of the bull shit
has come again
the hell of the fuck you
has returned
and the mother fuckers
that do exist
are once again not found
when will it ever stop
when will the sound
of the self destruction
ever end
and the self preservation
begin
oh yeah
i don't care

read my scripture

2005-06-10T00:34:26Z

and here is the hell ridden herpes that i ride
destroying the all that pain that was left behind
embarrassed to show what i truley want
must tip toe with these beasts of mine
so as to not stir up the pot
i trip over my own tongue just to get by
when you think that it is all satisfaction
that i hide
i just want the rivers to be red not just in my mind
but the entire place to flow
with horror and pure fear

ok then.........what i want

2005-06-09T05:22:24Z

basically someone to take me away in speach and visuals
i nee that something
that will actually be here
that one that wants to be with me
for that fucking good
and that awesome worse
otherwise
fuck off
and leave me the fuck alone
for it aint nothing else
but a fucking waste of my time right now
oh, and that goes for everyone

weep for the rest and pray for my death

2005-04-28T05:41:08Z

screaming at the top of my lungs as the bodies continue to come. expelling deathly intentions unto the hell ridden rodents that include myself. up and down we go across the steps, the bloody halls. to the back of the room we glide to where are place is. for the realization of a future is non existent. the thoughts of happiness and love have been stolen and replaced with unthinkable hatred. can't we all just perish into the worthless existence that has been our decision already rather then continue to feel the blows of the past that have been dealt unjustly. to think that a mistake might have been made. sad.

madhare713 @ 2005-04-17T22:41:00

2005-04-18T05:48:49Z

i am tearing at the walls
ripping out my hair
trying to understand what it all means
but committing suicide in the process
i hate the fact that its' right there
but i can't touch it
it's at the tip of my tongue
but i can't taste it
i trip over my mouth
and the words that expel themselves
for in the time in need
it's all the wrong thing
and i can't stop it
and the more i try
the more it breaks my back
the more it grips me
until there is no control
just a broken me
and a poor bistanderd

twisting has begun.......................

2005-04-14T05:32:28Z

we all dreams of love
and sell our trust
and then we are all decieved
cause the choices are always clear
that the truth is never there
that the lies run solid
and the dreams solidify
cause the ppl are confused
and nothing more than whores
i want to sell myself
to you
oh dont lie
of i do
fuck off
kill me some more
now that you have your jolies
go
thank you
for everything